Monday, May 15, 2017

PREGNANCY ROUND #2 (38w PREGNANT)


I'm 38 weeks pregnant now!!

I can't recall the last time I had a pregnancy update up on my blog.

And I'm already tired of this pregnancy. I feel so heavy. Sleeping at night is a joke! Imagine having a bowling ball dropped on your tummy everytime to try to lay down. Lets just look at it this way, laying down, making a turn, trying to stand up from a seat, trying to get up from the bed etc. it's the same feeling and I have never cursed this much my whole life!!

Last night my first born jumped on my previous scar. I was terrified because it felt like something ripped inside. It was an excruciating 1 minutes pain and I feel like I'm gonna start bleeding but I didn't and I'm so thankful for it.

H went back to his hometown for 5 days. It was his sister's wedding.

The "best" part is that, I haven't even packed my hospital bag yet 😅. I just packed my hospital bag yesterday, upon posting this.

Also, I've been getting this weird headache since week 37, told the midwife about it and the told me to consistently take my meds. As long as I don't have SOB then, I'm proclaimed fine.

Anyways.. here's a summary of my 38 weeks pregnancy..

How far along?
38 Weeks.


Total weight gain/measurements:
13kg. wohoo!

Stretch marks?
Just the old ones.

Sleep:
So hard. So painful.

Best moment this week:
I finally bought some new clothes for the baby (neutral colours), stuffs for my postpartum and breastfeeding journey. I feel like I didn't have to buy a lot of things this time around. With Belle, I purposely bought a mixed of everything so the baby sister/brother can just wear them later without having to buy new specific colour. Although it really is doesn't matter.


Miss anything?
Being normal again. To be able to twist and turn on bed normally, get out of bed normally, walk properly and.. run, please!

Movement:
A lot! Tummy gets tight and so uncomfortable at times but it's a sign my baby is doing great.

Anything making you queasy or sick?
Thank God that has passed.

Gender: We've decided to just wait.
Labor signs: Braxton hicks, increased discharge (sorry, tmi)

Symptoms:
Tightening, Braxton Hicks.

Belly button in or out?Out.
Wedding rings on or off? off. Not because I was bloating. Just took it off.

Happy or moody most of the time?
Emotionally, it's a struggle.

Looking forward to:
A healthy baby. Giving birth normally without induction and within this period given.


I will miss this sort of uninterrupted sleep and smooth sailing days with Belle after this but I really can't go on with my days feeling the pain in my belly and like my husband mentioned, being a slow loris. I know it will be hard too. But my husband is starting to learn the basics of helping me around the house and I hope he will continue doing so.

Please pray for my safe delivery. If not this week, the week after.
Have a nice day ahead.

x

Sunday, March 26, 2017

PREGNANCY ROUND #2 (32w PREGNANT)

#whatiswaist

I didn't have a lot of changes to record this week but I did have panic attack the day I went for a 4 days course outside town.

Belle was in her 4-5 days of Chicken Pox when I flew to Tawau. It was so hard for me to leave because she was so clingy and didn't want anyone else than me. My eyes was flooding with tears when I leave the house. She was screaming! I texted my sister as soon as I reached the airport. Apparently, Belle cried herself to sleep. #guiltymom Thank God her fever was under control that night. I told my sister everything there is to know and Belle was doing fine aside from the constant crying after scratching the scabs.

Also, I almost didn't make it to Tawau because I didn't have a doctor's letter (that permits me to fly) lol. Thank God the kind lady at the counter helped me fill in a form and I was able to board both flight BKI-TWU.

The night we settled in our hotel room, I had a mild bleeding. I PANICKED! My belly was lighter than usual and I had some sort of sharp pain down there. Only on day one though. The whole 4 days I stayed in our room (off course schedule) while the others went shopping because I was afraid that moving so much might trigger something else.

Anyways, everything went fine. Hubs and Belle came to pick me up at the airport after the course ended and I was glad to see Belle in such good health.

Baby is currently still breech, my HB level is below normal and I can't fit into my clothes anymore, it's driving me nuts!! I don't feel like buying new clothes because I am (if VBAC wasn't an option) 6 weeks away from meeting our 2nd baby. I haven't been gaining much weight but I feel like everything is wider. It's so confusing.

4 weeks left before our obgyn decides. Here's a summary of the current week.

How far along?
32 Weeks.

Total weight gain/measurements:
5.4kg. My weight had been the same this month.

Stretch marks?
none.

Sleep:
so-so.

 Postpartum needs #1 breastfeed and pump at ease!!

Best moment this week:
Belle healed from chicken pox! Bought some baby & postpartum stuff.


3 months supply of Belle's diaper lol.  RM8x (I forgot actual price, sorry) instead of RM129.x we usually buy. Such a bargain!

Miss anything?
Just my normal weight.



I actually forgot to record today because Belle had my phone all day.
  #myphoneisyoutphonetoobelle

Movement:
Been tracking baby movement using the fetal kick app. The doctor had me started counting on baby kicks but I tend to forget recording them down. So this app had been saving my life. Baby's doing great!

Anything making you queasy or sick?
non in particular. Still dislike the smell of coffee.

Gender: We've decided to just wait.
Labor signs: Braxton hicks here and there.

Symptoms:
Tightening, Braxton Hicks.

Belly button in or out?Out.
Wedding rings on or off? on.

Happy or moody most of the time?
Moody.

Looking forward to:
A healthy baby.

I've been so consistent this last trimester, I actually updated a week early. lol

x

Saturday, March 11, 2017

PREGNANCY ROUND #2 (30w PREGNANT)


This week marks my 30weeks of pregnancy.

I haven't been doing as much updates as I've planned to because, according to my Chinese zodiac predictions for this year, it's not gonna be a good one.

I tried not to believe this superstitious things but, every year I would say it's almost 70% accurate. There are things you should and shouldn't do to prevent bad energy from coming in and promote good energy though. Sort of a counter attack. One of it was, no black attire 😂. A hard one since the uniform I'm wearing every single day is of black and white.

This year is supposedly not a good year. One in particular is my healthy issue. Now, I had a idea about having health issues since I am obviously pregnant BUT what hit me was unexpected.

My anemia problem hasn't resolve and I probably have some sort of a Thalessemia (unconfirmed) in my genes. It's not bad, it's just interfering with my hemoglobin productions. It's not a huge problem as everything else is normal. It's just making me feel super tired and sick all the time.

Then, I got hit by wave of common cold and fever which interfered a lot with my work at the office.


If you think that's bad, at 28 weeks I had chicken pox! Believe it or not. It's so random. Among everything else, CHICKEN POX?! I quarantined myself for a week. It was so hard since I was isolated at home and I can hear my baby banging at the door searching, screaming and crying for me. At night when she had her regular blocked nose, she would cry so heavily, it just breaks my heart not to be able to take care of her. She's sleeping with my sister. Bless her soul.

Just as I returned to work, I got home the same day to realize that my baby had been infected by chicken pox too! She's on day 3 of CP. Last night she cried so much from discomfort. I felt sorry for her. I just got through a terrible one, now she's having it. The earliest days are the worst and she's only on day 3 this morning. She hasn't been eating much, vomited the only food I managed to feed her (porridge) and refused to drink her milk.

This morning we woke up at 5.30am and she asked for milk.

I want nenen (milk).


It warms my heart that she's finally slowly starting to build her grammar and understanding. She actually knows more than 100 words now, loves singing and pronouncing, she knows her colours, shapes, animals, alphabets and numbers up to 30!

Her kadazan (local language) is acceptable as she slowly learns body parts such as eyes, nose, face, mouth etc. in kadazan.

Her understanding has improved and at one point she would amaze me with new words or act.

Every morning now she'd say Good Morning.

Knowing I couldn't be there for her 24/7 is sad. She's sick and I'm leaving for a 4 days course in Tawau next week, it's never the best decision but I know she's in good hands. Bless my family for helping me.

Anyways, enough with the mushy stuffs.

Baby is doing great. At 28weeks, just before I had CP, I got a tooth pulled out, scaling and fillings. Pregnancy has a way of rotting my teeth!
I had a 3D scan and looks like I'm gonna have another Belle look-a-like lol😅. I think baby looks kind of like Belle too.
Baby is still breech and during my last appointment, I was given up to 37 weeks for baby to engage and after that, no more chance for VBAC since the last delivery was a CSEC. So, 36 weeks checkup with my obgyn will decide whether I would have it normal or cut open, again.😓

There's this one article I've read before of how most woman nowadays gets away with delivery pain and all those days of contractions pains by choosing CSEC. It is a choice if you see it as a choice. Personally, I'd prefer a normal one but with Belle, it wasn't my choice. I just wanted my baby to be delivered healthy. The excruciating 17hours of non progressive delivery is enough for my womb. Even after 17hours, Belle still hasn't engaged and they've since broke my water. I wanted a normal one but I couldn't have it.

This time, I'd let the obgyn decide whats best for me and my baby.

Anyways, it's saturday. Here's a summary of my pregnancy from the last update until today.

How far along?
30 Weeks.

Total weight gain/measurements:
6kg.

Stretch marks?
none. Chicken pox marks conquered it all 😂

Sleep:
Actually been great considering I'm in my 3rd trimester now.

Best moment this week:
Got through the roughest week of Chicken Pox! 

Miss anything?
Nothing in particular.

Movement:
Tons.

Anything making you queasy or sick?
Over eating, still. 

Gender: We've decided to just wait.
Labor signs: Braxton hicks here and there.

Symptoms:
Just super heavy belly.

Belly button in or out?Out.
Wedding rings on or off? on.

Happy or moody most of the time?
Moody.

Looking forward to:
Just a healthy journey all the way. I'm done with being sick!

Have a great day ahead. I'll update again at 33 weeks (crosses fingers).

x