Sunday, February 19, 2017


I've really been productive this past 2-3 weeks. I can feel my belly getting heavier as weeks gone by. I've actually set goals for me to achieve by April so I won't be rushing my way until May to finish everything. On top of that, I don't want to burden myself even more having a newborn and a toddler crying for me after my maternity leave. I want to be there for them and not spend time working extra hours like what I'm doing right now, typing this on weekend shift and having it on my mind that by the time I finished my shift, it'd be 10.00pm and I'm just coming home to a sleeping baby that I only managed to give a peck before I leave for work this morning. I feel like a responsible and irresponsible mother at the same time.

 Here's a belly shot - sort of. It definitely grew since the last time I took a photo of it. A size of a banana inside. Yum, my favorite.

I wanted to do a 25 weeks update but I was too occupied with work and my schedules seems to be always full.

 Here's my little one. I feel like a bad mother for not spending more time with her. On days where I get to sleep in for longer time, I like to cuddle with her, read her books, sing some nursery rhymes and without any reason at all, bring her out with me to the mall, looking at fruits and veges ( her favorite section) and if she behaves, I'll buy her some toys.

For most of it, I am the better clingy one than her. She waits for me outside the bathroom every single time, It warms my soul. But she's all I can think of through the day.

 My 2 weeks appointment is out. I am not going in every month to see the nurse and doctor. My blood level maintained the same which is actually a stressful phase I need to go through every week. I had blood drawn out of me every 2 weeks, medication isn't helping me at all and I am now trying a raw approach.

That in the photo is my raw beet, spinach and banana smoothie with a punch of grape juice. I hope it made a difference to my blood level.

Cravings, well, I've been having the same thing every single day. Just that I am still in love with bolognese the same way I love pork noodle soup when I was pregnant with my first.

Today, I had porridge and fried kueh (cakui) and hot soy milk since I'm off fresh milk and caffeine.

Here's to sum up my weeks

How far along?
27 Weeks.

Total weight gain/measurements:

Stretch marks?
Just the old ones. I've been using bio oil diligently and I noticed some stretch marks fading away.

Sleep has been alright. I've been coming home pretty much exhausted and slept through the night without fuss. Belle had been sleeping through the night too which is good.

Best moment this week:
Back to my working momentum and got to settle few targets!

Miss anything?
Independently able to do just about anything. 


Anything making you queasy or sick?
Over eating, still. 

Gender: Scan is next week.
Labor signs: Braxton hicks here and there.

Just super heavy belly.

Belly button in or out?Out.
Wedding rings on or off? on.

Happy or moody most of the time?

Looking forward to:
Baby gender.

We haven't started shopping for baby items yet. We're hoping it will be anytime soon. 

My tooth fillings has been falling off and it scares me to get a treatment due to the fact that it will hurt my baby. I am paranoid.


Wednesday, January 25, 2017


I have a love and hate with this pregnancy. Sometimes, I feel dreadful. Most of the time I feel very moody. Honestly, the only reason I wake up in the morning and feel good about it is... well, actually my daughter. Truth is, I am a tad bit clingy towards Belle. Every inch of her I want to pack into my bag and carry her everyday to the office. Everyday at work I think of her... more than I think of daddy. Honestly, I only think of daddy when I need a ride home or when I am hungry. But most of all, I am more drawn to Belle than anyone else.

Alright. That sums up my 23 weeks update.


On the other note, my anemia problem hasn't resolve. On early January, I got super super sick that I had to take antibiotics to help me with the viral fever. I lost 2kg, still have to feed Belle and pull myself together for work. It was actually quite stressful eventhough I have help from my family.

The antibiotics I took made my anemia worst.

I've gained quite a few kg this few weeks that shocked me the other day. So shocked even my colleague was surprised of the looks I gave after weighing myself.

My appetite had increased tremendously that I found myself eating 2 heavy meals every 15 minutes. I found the need to feed myself every 2 hours now which is pretty bad considering the rapid increase in my weight. I'm having my glucose test at 24 weeks before heading back to hub's for Chinese New Year.

Anyways, here's my 23 weeks update.

How far along?
23 Weeks.

Total weight gain/measurements:

Stretch marks?
Just the old ones.

Sleep hasn't been great. Well, sometimes it is. We bought extra mattress for when I needed the space so, I was thinking yes! I have extra space now BUT I was wrong. I feel like sardines everytime Belle decided to sleep so near to my belly at the edge of the bed.

Best moment this week:
Eating any food without needing to throw up.

Miss anything?
Less painful walks. I'm thinking, I might be short on calcium.

Oh, I'm having a ninja.

Anything making you queasy or sick?
Over eating lol. 

Gender: Baby's still not showing but, any gender will do.
Labor signs: Nope.

Feeling tired all the time, sleepy, cramps and joint pain. Also, the most dreaded constipation (sorry, tmi)

Belly button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? on.

Happy or moody most of the time?
Moody. Probably because of the travelling these day. This year in fact, I'm gonna be travelling so much.

Looking forward to:
Days where I don't have cramps and pain in any part of my body.


At this point, I feeling quite good with myself. I am up and going, I am able to perform simple task and I am back on track with work again.

Although they say 2nd trimester is the honeymoon phase in pregnancy but I do feel like it's not, because of the symptoms. I do look ok but mama, walking like a penguin is not comfortable.


Monday, January 2, 2017

HAPPY 2017

I forgot I have 10 resolution stamped onto this blog last year. Since I did one for 2015, here’s another round of reminiscent for 2016!

Ok. That might had given clue to how life’s been on 2016.

So, here’s the resolution I set last year :

1. Be emotionally stronger and not pushing myself too hard. This is the kind of things I will forever be trying.

I’ve since been emotionally improved. Sometimes I cry because I was trying to fight the urge to verge out my feelings but I don’t want to, so I cried alone, in the room (sometimes in the toilet, lol) but it’s mostly from having these weird pregnancy hormones. I have gotten a little positive throughout the year but I can be better.

2. Continue to keep this blog alive.

Failed! The number of excuses I made to makeup up for the times lost to be a better blogger is not even acceptable anymore.

3. Try to have another baby.

Basically the highlight of my 2016!

4. Be more open to accept challenges.

Actually I’m not sure about this one. My pregnancy has been challenging so far… wait! Waking up to a toddler poking your eyes and pulling the blanket off of you on weekend is a challenge! 

Recently my hormones have been jumpy and I can’t decide if there’s a real reason for each argument I found myself into every single time or it’s just the hormones.

I haven’t been doing much of my years but I think I have done something that I fear I won’t be able to do but I did. And thinking about it now really makes me proud of myself.

5. Continue to pray for my family health, happiness and world peace.

There's a few dull days that I didn't pray but praying has been a routine. 

6. Be a good wife to my husband and an even greater mom to my cheeky daughter.

The husband would always approves of me and my daughter would always prefer me over anyone else. Since I am the only wife and mother for the two of them, I can say I forever pass this one. Lol.
But I can be better.


I can’t say I failed on this one but I surely didn’t pass. I managed to pay off my study loan early 2015 which gave me room to do other things with the extra money I have. Can’t say I’ve earned more, but I surely didn’t regret spending a tad bit extra last holiday.

8. Make time for arts and music.

PASS!! I managed to take 2 music exams this year. It was great!

I feel like I’ve thrown it in the list to run a marathon this year but I can’t find it anywhere. Hmm.


Looks like I cleared all my resolutions! My new year resolution this year is to set equally easy resolutions so next year I’d feel accomplished again lol.

Overall 2016 isn't as bad as everyone thinks it is. Every year people bid goodbye to the recent year and said the next year would be better. But then the next year ends and they rotate the same sentence over and over again. People just need to give thanks and be grateful to be waking up every single morning in one whole piece, with family and no wars to fight (when others does).

I told myself to not put overly high expectations anymore because I down want the fallout to drown me and ruined what I have. I am grateful to have a family that appreciate what I do than having to fight for something else and lose what I already have.

My new year resolution for 2017 :

1. Give birth to another baby.
2. Try to think positive in every way, always be grateful and don’t forget to count my blessings!
3. Travel to JAPAN Travel to at least 1 place I’ve never been before.
4. Get more organized!
5. Stay fit even after I gave birth. Even if I have to just settle with 54kg for the rest of my life. Haha
6. Document life as much as I could.
7. Cook more.
8. Continue to keep this blog alive!