Wednesday, February 24, 2016


This is not the typical motivational long essay, so if you're feeling down, you have this huge wall when it comes to skin well, I am on your side. So don't further read this if you are trying to make yourself happy about your skin.

well now.

I hate my skin. My skin is my biggest insecurity since my teenage years. I hate that I was exposed to makeup so early but NOBODY told me to properly cleanse my skin. NOBODY.

My cousin told me that things would get better after I finish high school but no. It's the same as it is.

In high school, I had the worst whitehead, blackhead combination and its even worst when I was on my period.

The first time I met my then boyfriend, he was as disgusted as I was towards my skin. Imagine being told directly and even worst, being compared to others.When he points and talk about people with troubled skin, I feel so bad. It felt like I was the one being looked at and told how bad my skin is.

Those dermatologist visit were so tempting but I didn't have the cash for it. So I stroke that off the list.

Those terrible traditional acne remedies were even worse. "wipe your face with used men underwear" is the worst of all. I never did it though. Although I do wonder many times if it worked.

Feeling good about your skin is easier said than done. I don't like it when people who have occasional breakout telling others that they have acne, suffering from acne etc. because it clearly not the truth.

So what I did was pilled lots and lot of makeup assuming I'd look better but it got worse.

The thing is that, I never knew how sensitive my skin had become from all those product testing and it got so irritated I stopped using products for a long time. My skin kind if recovered.

After that I slowly learn to properly cleanse and discovered how makeup made me touch my face less. I got to know my skin better and use only the basics.

This might be the most unfiltered, raw, unedited, live, straight from the SD card photo I've posted my whole blogging years but I basically don't really care anymore. I am happily married, have a beautiful daughter and my husband loves me as I am, so I have no complains to that.

My acne problem had gotten better. It got a lot better after I gave birth. Probably the hormone changes but this doesn't apply to everyone though. Please don't take this as something to look forward too.

If you can, eat better, exercise and try to keep your hands off your face.



claudy said...
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Ilya said...

You're beautiful. Don't let anybody tell you different. No one who is concerned about you should be comparing your skin to anyone.